Amazing Grace

This article was written (4/2007) as an assigment for the academy ,

I was 5 months old ( as a new born christian) I just wanted

to share with you as a testimony of what GOD has done in the

first 5 moths of my new life . Imagine now, He is and awesome GOD...

Like everybody else I had dreams; I remember when I was a little girl, I wanted to be a prima ballerina, a fashion designer, an architect and an archeologist. Later, in my adolescence, I wanted to be a lawyer and an anthropologist; finally, when I graduated from college, I received a B.A. of History, so I become an Historian. My specialty is in family, genders and sexuality in the Caribbean, Latin-American and American culture in the last two centuries. I was a folk dancer and a musician for about 5 years and a crazy reader of urban designers, I though that I was doing right and everything what I wanted, but it was always an empty space inside me, I was unhappy and searching for more things with the excuse of curiosity, experimenting and desire to learn more; however, never was enough, I got myself in a never ending search with not common sense at all, but losing my self and getting away from the only truth, the almighty God.

My last 7 years have been intense and crazy, but finally I found what I was looking, what I needed. I found the way of truth, the only way to make sense of my life; It has been always there, always around me; He knocked my door several times and I ignored Him, sometimes, I didn’t want to open it; I heard Him, but I didn’t want to sacrifice my flesh, I didn’t want to give up my right of take my own decisions; basically, I wasn’t ready for commitments. Nevertheless, God found his way to open my heart, making it sensible to His love and mercy.

Those last years were not easy, I suffered a lot, like one song says, “I was running hundred miles per hour in the wrong direction… finding myself three years older and few more steps behind.” I was in a roller coaster of pain, with not hopes, dreams neither strength. I was death. The Devil took everything away from me, I was serving him without even know it. He was having a party with my body, soul and spirit, he was succeeding ; his slogan is “To Kill, To destroy and To robe” Believe me , he did it in my life, he destroy my self- steem, he robbed my dreams, my desires, my talents, my senses and he was killing my spirit. I was totally entrapped in his most famous lies such as, I own my body, so I can do whatever I want with it; God will never forgive me for what I have done; I don’t need to go to church; the Bible is a historical book, and other lies. I found my self very educated on those philosophies and very knowledgeable of what mankind had done in history and why God didn’t do anything about it. I called that part of my life “the darkness” because I wasn’t able to see, I was blind, deft and insensitive.
I never though that, I was a divine creature who was born with a purpose. I wasn’t an accident like a thought; I was created for the Almighty God, for the creator of heaven and earth. He gave me the spirit; put special talents, and gifts; gave me unique features and created me to be His child, to be His servant, to be His princess, the apple of His eyes. It took me more than quarter of a century to understand it, to accept who I really am, a daughter of God.

In this new season of my life, I will call it “the color TV” probably you don’t remember the black and white TV, well; I can see everything the right way, with the colors and sounds. I am not longer death, Jesus rescued me from death , he resurrected me and gave me back everything that the Devil had taken away from me; It is a process and take time to restore me, to clean me, to get me ready for my purpose; I have never been so happy in my life; I am discovering a new person in me, I am a new woman in Jesus Christ , I am feeling love, and for the first time in my life I know what it feels like being loved and letting the past go; I am able to forgive, to be understanding and more willing to help people, oh! God your are good, only you could made this changes in my life because not matter how many books I read, not Confucius, Freud, Sartre and other authors none of them were able to fulfill my heart, that “black hole” in my chest ; only you, Jesus, my savior were able to heal my life.
Being a new woman in Jesus Christ made me think different, I am still praying for the revelation of my purpose in this life; I think that I have been call to help women as a guidance and counseling, that is what I feel, of course under the direction of the Holy Spirit. I want to go for my Master in Guidance and Counseling; hopefully, I will be able to attend a Christian University.
About my talents, I think dancing is one of my strongest, so I will put this talent to created a group of Hebrew dance in our church; this talent will let me worship him in a different way; it will also , be a new group in the church with the youngest girls so they will learn how to use cimbalos (tambourines), flags and cintas (lace) . This is something that I like and I will love to do it; I have this strong feeling and desire in my heart ,so I am praying to receive God’s blessing for this project.
God has made me intelligent, I can say that He has made me smart and fast learner, so I would like to help assisting the “Red de Damas” (Women Ministry) with organization of events, with the computer programs and sharing God’s word everywhere they go. I would like to volunteer to go to visit inmates in prisons, elderly people in homes and children in hospitals; I would love to share the joy, the love that God has placed in my heart with those who need it.

About my personal dreams, I want my mother here with me, and my brother; I want them to come to church with me and grow loving and serving God. Another dream is the salvation of my entire family and its deliverance; I know God can do it if he wants because he is a merciful God.
Other dreams are: get a nice job according with my talents and a place that I can make the difference because I have the living God in me. Get the house of m y dreams, I would love to have a weekly meeting to share God’s word. And of course, finally meet my Adam, get marry and have a baby (David Alexander / Chloe, Naomi) I know is a lot, but for God nothing is impossible..
My desires: be in his presence everyday, every moment. Be able to speak in tongue and interpret it. Keep the Holy Spirit in me. Learn more and more about God and his work in this earth..
I was re-born in this church , now I am pretty sure that it was for a big reason, why ? I don’t know yet, but I will... I was once in a church and even though they had asked me at least 3 time if I wanted to accept Jesus as my savior, I really accepted last November; since then, it has been like living in a third dimension; it’s going to be five moths at the end of this month and I started receiving liberation since them, I was baptized in water on march 2; my first encounter was in March 30; baptize with the Holy Spirit on April first; now I waiting for my third call, the call of serving in one ministry meanwhile I keep praying, crying and waiting upon his covenants, promises, mercy and love because God is so good.